@KontraVersus It sucks having to deal with the problems of our society, which can't stop trying to capitalise on anything... It seems that everything has to become, at some point, a form of merchandise to fulfil someone else's need.
I understand what you mean and I also feel that way to a certain extent. Not in the same way as you, of course.
I think it's best to take a break and continue making "art for art's sake". You don't need to have a really deep relationship with art to do it, and you don't need to know what you're doing to do what you're doing either.
I think you should stop thinking of art as something "serious", or "technical", or etc. It may be important up to a point, but in the end it's not as important as the execution.
Just the fact that your style isn't standardised is something to be proud of, in my humble opinion. Take a break, have some time to rest, think about other things, watch some videos, read some books, think about life or the root of the things that affect you positively or negatively. Just take a break and get back to making art. Or, who knows, make a kind of art for art's sake!
You know, mate, I think it's quite painful to go through this process because until a few years ago I only knew how to make music; I didn't know how to do anything else. And today, after immersing myself in reading and studying, I think I know a thing or two about some subjects outside of what was previously the only thing I knew how to do. I'd recommend my reading list to you, but everything I've read is either too boring or too political, lmao.
I think because it's a personal issue, I shouldn't be butting in like I'm a long-time friend of yours. Honestly, I just wish you well, artist to artist, that's all.
Get well, my comrade.
This has been meuny.
Meuny
I know that this post is very personal to you, but I think it's interesting that I discuss art with you.
I know, making art gets boring from time to time, and depending on the way you make it, it can end up making you sick of making art faster than normal - or faster than you're normally able to.
Art is not merely about quality or consistency of productivity. There is no rule book that says art should be based on its abstract quality or the constant consistency of its making. I know that for you and for many people, art can mean the demonstration of techniques being successfully executed in a specific work - but honestly, for me, there is no point in using different techniques during the production of a work if there is no longer a genuine passion in making it.
This is my maxim: Art is being and making art is becoming. There's no point in forcing yourself to make a work in one way or another, since that's like forcing yourself to be someone you're not.
An example of this would be if I only made trap beats. That's not me. I'm weird and I like doing weird things.
I don't want to impose my rules or tips on you. The way you should love art should come from you, unfortunately. I realise that there are things outside your relationship with art that may be affecting you negatively. But I ask you from the bottom of my heart to never give up on art, just realise that maybe the kind of drawing you're doing isn't the kind you really want to do. Maybe those rules and moulds you've been imposing on yourself are precisely what have made you stop loving art.
I wish you well, because I know how agonising it is not to love your own art.
Anyways, this has been Meuny.
KontraVersus
Man, that's a very nice message. Thank you for sharing this here
To be honest I always heard people talk about how they can somehow channel making art from their hearts or something like that hahah. I never really understood it, that's the point, but I assume that's how people make stuff like vent art or the more classical examples of art that have more meaning behind them, like Frida Kahlo. Her artwork is like a diary, a channeling of her feelings, something about her art (and the art of many other great artists, not just the classical examples but more modern too) is so much more than how I personally see art. It has always been more for me about giving my ideas life than giving my emotions life, and maybe it's just about me changing perspectives? I am not sure, I tried applying to art colleges before, they wanted someone so passionate about art, I don't know how to be this passionate about it. I made art because I liked it. But there was no meaning to it like how these people wanted to hear, because what I enjoyed about it is giving my ideas life. But it also kinda makes me unable to create pieces that I genuinely want to create, because I just... don't know what I'm doing you know? Like someone who's genuinely passionate about just the act of creating art. I do enjoy the process of it but something about how I make art at the moment is just wrong to me. Maybe I'll figure this out eventually hahah.
There is a chance that I have some unique gift, a path that I will have to create myself because no one has done it before, and there's an equal chance I just never will enjoy making art "seriously". And maybe that's for the better, well, it would be bad for my wallet (I don't have much going on in terms of skills, this is all I ever could do with myself) but to be honest I hate how every single thing I did had to be turned into a long term plan on how to monetise it eventually, because of just how useless I feel, and how unable I am to do most things in life. Everyone else has SOMETHING to fall back onto if one thing doesn't work out, and they won't suffer, maybe they will be a bit disappointed? I always felt like life will be borderline unlivable if I don't monetise my hobbies, and that PROOOBABLY contributed to this feeling of resignation.
This was VERY personal but well, this is just how I feel about my hobbies in general at the moment, nothing I do I can just enjoy, everything has to give me some kind of monetary gain, because I have to survive, at all cost, I must sacrifice myself to survive, and it sucks.