I was doing really well with motivation and all, I don't think I could release 1 drawing a week since I was a really small kid. And as I was speeding through the gift I was making for someone and the drawing I was finishing I suddenly looked at my drawing and thought "holy shit, this is still so fucking ugly" and I haven't touched anything in a week lol. I also started looking at my art I released here, that I thought was really good and now I feel like I suddenly see every single small flaw again. And even though my ratings are good (which I don't think even should matter to me either really) I still feel like a 4.50 star rating is like I scored 5/10 lol.
I think I might have overdone it with the amount of work I put on myself out of happiness.
ON TOP OF THAT I started watching documentaries on real life accidents, crimes etc and this shit really badly fucks with me.
WHY IS MY BRAIN DOING THIS TO ME
Ceejaythe630th
Just take it all easy on yourself. It's the holidays too, so just sit back and relax until you feel ready to make art again. You DO have the talent.
KontraVersus
Thank you :,D it's a mixture of my life being crap in the past, really bad experiences with social media and the pressure to post consistently or your accounts are literally dead and never recovering after like few weeks of not posting and a lot of people putting me down. But at he same time a lot of people told me I'm very good! So in conclusion nothing people say should matter here hahah (but obviously kind words help :D ). I still need to figure out how to actually get out of bad moods, because the last bad mood took me half of my life to recover from lol...