So after I made that last post I was feeling rather sad, as one would.

But after I felt sad all day and I sat on the toilet (sorry for the details but that is what happened lol) I started just passively creating all of this world building and game mechanics in my head as I was watching a video on youtube, I actually thought of a very cool spell and some of the cultural implications of that spell (long story short, my magic system is split by elements, and one of these elements gets a spell that can only be learned when you level up in skill with using that element, and it's one of the most dangerous spells in the world because it's so powerful it severely damages the body and the brain of a user, but when you master that element it can get much safer to use, even if it never is really safe to use)

I think what I would really like to do is develop these concepts for my game, no idea how on earth am I ever going to make this a reality but for now it's not about that, it's about me trying not to make everything about survival so I can just enjoy things in life.

But yeah turns out I'm not creatively doomed maybe lol.