I wanna start making art again, I wish it would be fun again. (I know I made SOME art, but I wanna get back into it :( )

I still don't know if my desire to make my art appealing (to myself) is good or not, it went past a point of motivating me to a point where I couldn't stand drawing any more. But I feel like I CAN'T get rid of that feeling, so I assume it's just how I want things to be. And I've been thinking that one of the reasons it got so insufferable was because it felt like I wasted 10 years of my life and I'm still incredibly mediocre at this skill. But putting all the... personal issues aside. I never remember that I was so busy with dealing with other issues in my life I could hardly really even draw when I was a teen/in my earliest twenties.

Looking at things, there are still things I find difficult to grasp when it comes to anatomy, I still haven't figured out the best art style for myself (in terms of my own comfort of creating art more than it looking a certain way, although that counts too) and I dunno, I think I just looked at this the wrong way. I obtained friends recently (crazy), I've been able to be heard in a supportive environment for the first time in my life really and it opened my eyes on a lot of things, and how I was busy. As a teen. And it is unfair to assume that I'm just "not good enough to be an artist" I was severely depressed :,D so I should really learn to give myself more passes (especially if it would help me... not give up on things)

I might just make fanart for a while, or whatever I feel like. Vargskelethor Joel does little art segments on his streams and seeing all the cool art really made me want to make more art lol, so that's why fanart (but I've been thinking of League of Legends too... as I always do lol)