I haven't touched my notes in MONTHS, I opened them today again, didn't write anything new outside of a few corrections in what I already wrote down but I have SO MANY. NOTES.

I forgot just how much progress I already made on designing this world and the game I wanted to make too. I legit thought I'm gonna open these notes and just feel defeated about how slowly things are moving along but I forgot I actually was working really hard at the start of this year before my life went to shit again...

Today I also practiced Danish a lot (one of my completely abandoned hobbies in life was language learning) and I dunno, I just feel like I'm getting into the swing of things again. Watch my life fall apart again or some shit now that I started somewhat getting up tho :))))))) genuinely this just happens over and over again.

Whenever my life starts looking livable I KNOW something is going to make me regret being born again. But I will get up again. I'm so fucking stubborn no one can kill me.

Good for me I guess but please god why.

(forgot to mention I started uploading on my Youtube channel again, I'm very happy with just how many things I've been able to do lately and I need to write it down because no one is there to support me like that atm, but well your number one supporter should ALWAYS be yourself anyways...)

My relationship with art still remains somewhat strained though :( I really pushed myself too far for years honestly, especially with college (I didn't even get to college...) But I do draw! I'm drawing a new personal logo, I've been designing my goat channel mascot and just doing a lot of small things :) like that cool Joel painting fanart I made. So not that bad.