Feels good to throw things off my chest actually, I haven't done that in a while, also due to trauma forcing me to emotionally close off.

Also again, I'm not in any immediate danger, so don't worry. I'm actively on medication and looking for therapy, and hopefully someone will help me instead of making everything worse. I have not been very blessed when it comes to external help in my life.

If you haven't seen my previous post no need to look... lol... (will probably delete it in a while it's very emotional, it's hard for me to handle stuff right now for multiple reasons and the state of the world is really affecting me negatively)