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"Your boundary is at hue 175, bluer than 66% of the population. For you, turquoise is green."

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This is my result

Be honest....

Update: Colour cyan I am referring to

ART

Little fucking guy

btw I still haven't finished someone's commission and it's been like half a year because I died randomly while I was making it and couldn't draw for months.

Drawing something special now tho (alongside finishing this commission lol)

When will I leave my cocoon and mutate into the beautiful functional human being

Also update on the game, it is going!

Slowly though!

I wish we could find some help but I'd hate to condemn a stranger to working for free like we do at the moment lol

I started working on a game with a few friends from college and it's super exciting.

I still need to wait and see where this will go, life can be unpredictable and we just started and I had so many disappointments in life I kinda just expect something to go wrong at this point. But well, pray for our success lol!

Because we have plans to release a demo on Newgrounds (it's a VERY DISTANT PLAN though), I will try to get back to drawing now that I have a goal in mind and don't feel so directionless, and of course I will post updates :D

Unless everything goes to shit then I will continue being depressed

do you

When I was a kid (around 9) I used to cry really hard and get weirdly depressed from that one very sad Up song (Up the Pixar movie) and I still can't listen to it tbh bc it still makes me cry, I'm an adult now so it's not as bad but still lol.

And today I was watching some Sleep Deprived (Shlat, Astro, Mika and Apandah's podcast youtube channel) and I was laughing and shit (although I've been in a bad mood for a while now) and that Ratatouille song started playing and I immediately started crying lol.

So what is this post about? I am weird. That's it :)

The title is 100% true! :)

I went to a psychiatrist to deal with the voices in my head (this one isn't true, I like the voices in my head, so happy my drugs didn't take them away) and the doctor prescribed me antidepressants to deal with some psychosomatic pain and health issues I started having years ago at this point.

I genuinely thought that I'm not depressed any more, at least that it was mild depression at worst, even the doctor told me "I don't look depressed" (not in a mean way, she meant to say that it doesn't look like I'm someone who struggles with that any more, just like I also told her) but holy fuck I was wrong.

I think I was struggling with hidden severe depression for years, I just lived in it for so long I had no idea any more what feeling normal even feels like. Now I feel like an actual functional human being. I can talk to people at my college, I can do hobbies again, my struggles now feel normal, they don't feel like overwhelming mental illness any more.

So anyways what I wanted to say is buy things from my ko-fi or Im going to be depressed again and all of this will be your fault :) here's the link handsome https://ko-fi.com/kontraversus

I'm sorry (not really) but this is just so fucking funny to me I'm going to end every post with a self promotion now because it is not only good for my business but also has comedic value :)

Bad times

For some reason I did post on my other social media but something kept me for 3 months from coming back here, this feels like such a nice place to me and for some reason good feelings often cause me to run away in fear. But I've been feeling much better I think, so I'm back :,)

Also shameless plug, sorry, I am in financial ruin atm lol, but I opened a ko-fi page recently, give it a look if ya wanna I sell stuff there https://ko-fi.com/kontraversus

I'm just here to express my excitement, I was unable to read what changes in 2025 because when I get too stressed I get super disoriented and can't focus on a thing I'm worried about so I'll have to re read these when I cool off(and applying for college abroad, that is additionally a VERY good college is fucking terrifying to me, not to mention I still have no clue how on earth will I even manage my finances)

If there's a class schedule anywhere for the course I'm applying to I really should check it out so it doesn't turn out I'll get no time to go to work lol

Absolutely nothing of what I just said is relevant to anyone but me but I'm just so fucking panicked lol, and very excied too.