I made this with my own two brain globes and to be completely honest with you I can't stop laughing at this, but I'm worried I'm just mentally ill (also the fucking Karen emoji movie character was unintentional, it's like my new persona thing because I can't decide what I want but it looks like a fucking emoji movie character here and it makes me laugh even harder)

Big poggies thank you :) I will provide you nothing

I fucking fell

When I was trying to get my tea on top of my wardrobe (I have a bunk bed in my room and it's like a table for me lol)

And I fucking fell

And I got boiling water all over my hand

And my toe twisted weird and I just pulled it to set it back to place in a panic I don't even fucking know what happened to it lol but now it hurts and it's swollen and it sucks bc I really don't wanna go to the doctor :( The nurses in my local clinic are fucking mean to me

I need to change clinics

I'm working on something, I wanted to make more fanart bc I thought that might help with my eternal art blockage but it didn't lmao, so I'm trying to make original art again

I tried writing more lore for my fantasy world and I can just feel how overwhelming it feels

I have to add info about the races and figure out the details about some races and name them and I don't even know what to write and sometimes I have to write information that is kinda just a placeholder because I need to update it later because I don't know how to finish it yet now and it's confusing and I might forget agdhjvajdv

To be completely honest as I was writing this now I just remembered I had a specific tactic to prevent myself from forgetting to update information.... Speaking out loud or writing things down can be really really useful :D

Still man, LOTS OF WORK lol (but it's fun, I'm just worried I'll get creative block again)

I feel really stupid now.

Dude was legit like "give me your personal information (but not too much I guess so he didn't seem suspicious or whatever) or your account on [social media account] will be IP BANNED" like I have a tendency to shit my pants when something like this happens and I get really confused but still I feel so dumb because I was literally writing my personal fucking information down for this person and was about to send it... God have mercy on me. (I did not send anything to that person THANK GOD I realised something was off last second)

But yeah I still feel really dumb.

I haven't touched my notes in MONTHS, I opened them today again, didn't write anything new outside of a few corrections in what I already wrote down but I have SO MANY. NOTES.

I forgot just how much progress I already made on designing this world and the game I wanted to make too. I legit thought I'm gonna open these notes and just feel defeated about how slowly things are moving along but I forgot I actually was working really hard at the start of this year before my life went to shit again...

Today I also practiced Danish a lot (one of my completely abandoned hobbies in life was language learning) and I dunno, I just feel like I'm getting into the swing of things again. Watch my life fall apart again or some shit now that I started somewhat getting up tho :))))))) genuinely this just happens over and over again.

Whenever my life starts looking livable I KNOW something is going to make me regret being born again. But I will get up again. I'm so fucking stubborn no one can kill me.

Good for me I guess but please god why.

(forgot to mention I started uploading on my Youtube channel again, I'm very happy with just how many things I've been able to do lately and I need to write it down because no one is there to support me like that atm, but well your number one supporter should ALWAYS be yourself anyways...)

My relationship with art still remains somewhat strained though :( I really pushed myself too far for years honestly, especially with college (I didn't even get to college...) But I do draw! I'm drawing a new personal logo, I've been designing my goat channel mascot and just doing a lot of small things :) like that cool Joel painting fanart I made. So not that bad.

I'm watching a video about this woman who is a beekeeper, and she started talking about how she loved collecting and observing bugs as a kid and it just hit me that there are people out there who popped out of their mom and they are like "I fucking love bugs". Nothing really prompted this, there might be experiences in life that strengthen heir love of bugs, but she was just created and she was like "oh my god that's a creature" and I think that's interesting.

• I playfully decided recording myself sing for the first time, I sing occasionally, I really enjoy it, I think I'm not THAT bad
• I listen to audio I recorded
• I finally learn the meaning of the word "torture"

But as Jake the dog said "sucking at something is the first step towards being sorta good at it" or something like that :)

Do you ever just need to take your head out of the idiot zone like your head is just visiting the cretin land and he didn't even fucking tell you and you receive a postcard that says "stay stupid dumbo" and you're like what the fuck